Warm Water Dissolves

You stand, elbow deep in soapy scum

the wreckage of the day flows beneath you.

every bite,

every crumb,

washed
            
              away.


"So simple," you think.

so, you take your sore, sore heart

soak it,

wring it out.


Warm water dissolves the pain;
it makes your heart beat again.

Insurance Policy

I've never had enough money to afford insurance. In fact, I've never owned anything worth insuring. Current state of my life: 26yrs old,  living with parents, babysitting for money. A sad state of affairs if I were to dwell on it too long. However, a recent visit from my parents' pastor showed me that insurance needn't be expensive, it is as simple as a state of mind.

Imagine me, in my current mental unrest, sitting amongst those, who seem all too eager to convert me and to my surprise believing that it would take no real effort at all. I am told I should believe "just in case".

Just in case?! Really?

In case there is a God. In case the world implodes and my non beliefs aren't a comfort.

I was extremely insulted by "just in case", because I honestly believed I deserved a better, more well thought out argument as to why I should believe. Did they really think I was that lazy? That when given the easy way out I just would? Their belief strategy would require no real effort on my part, no commitment, in actual fact, no belief at all. It would be the illusion of a belief.

It's the cheapest insurance policy I've encountered yet, pay it off with some self deception and you've made it into heaven. Seriously, such a cheap payment makes God seem cheap. Poor God!